easter break surprises

just being yourself can bring the most amazing memories.

for the longest time i always thought things would be better off without plans.

and i was right.

the most wonderful things happen unexpectedly.

you may not realize it but everyone runs on a schedule.

wake up, go to school, come home, do afternoon tasks, then go to bed.

but lets say something gets in the way of routine.

sometimes it causes a domino effect.

and that's when moments count the most.

that's when the things you remember for the rest of your life happen.

me and my family had made plans to go on a trip to texas over break.

i had to work,

so my family left a day before me.

so i was driving all by myself to texas,

and my car starts making wierd noises.

then it breaks down in the middle of a deserted street when i was trying to find a car shop.

i was pissed.

some mexican guy sees me and pulls over to help.

he guy was hot.

literally hot.

he was sweating like crazy.

which is reasonable considering i was in oklahoma.

he came and looked at my car.

there was some wierd technical term to what was wrong,

but to me it was just a p.o.s. car.

he called a buddy who lived nearby to bring jump cables.

when the buddy got there i recognised him.

it was the same guy who had earlier paid for part of my drink at a rest stop because he was trying to flirt with me.

the guy, whose name turned out to be miguel, jump started my car.

since he was so nice to me,

i gave him my cell number.

then i went to texas.

on the way back to the boring town of plainfield,

i got a call from miguel.

he wanted to see me.

so i stopped for an hour or so,

and me and miguel had lunch.

it was so amazing.

and it never would have happened if my car hadn't broke down,

and my plans hadn't been interupted.

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fire drills

i love fire drills.

it's a good excuse to get out of class.

i would hate it if there was a real fire.

but i love fire DRILLS.

except when they come at completely the wrong moment.

i was talking to this guy who i've liked for a while.

he had asked me about this friday,

so i figured he was going to ask me out.

then the fire drill came,

so we all had to go outside (duh).

he went and talked to his friends and i went and talked to mine.

when we got back inside,

i tryed to bring the subject back up,

but it was a failure.

but i still like fire drills.

it's a good change of scenery.

you know,

not having to stare at the black walls of plainfield south.

i think they should paint the walls.

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serial dieter

so dieting is a thing we hear a lot about at pshs.

why exactly do people diet?

is it because they think they are fat or ugly?

actually, most of the people that i have talked to about it say it is to become healthier; not skinnier.

i admit that even i am on a diet.

but my diet is not at all crazy.

i am basically adding more good foods to my eats.

and i'm slowly getting rid of all the bad foods in my diet.

i'm also drinking a lot more water and getting a lot more exercise than i used to.

i'm not quite sure what made me want to go on a diet.

i know i don't need.

what i hate to hear at pshs is when i tell a person that i'm on a diet, and the next thing out of their mouth is

"why are you on a diet? you're not fat!"

i know that i'm not fat.

thanks for stating the obvious.

i know i'm not twig-thin; but i know i'm not fat.

i just want to be healthier.

today

i was very hurt when a friend of mine told me that she thinks she is going to start bingeing-and-purging.

i hate this form of "dieting."

it is so unhealthy for you.

and nothing good ever comes out of it.

my friend is a beautiful girl.

she has had her bad days when people call her fat.

and she doesn't want to be thought of as unpretty any more.

so to all those people out there who put down the girls with curves,

know that what you say can really hurt someone.

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pregnancy at pshs

did you ever notice how many pregnant girls there are at pshs?

i did.

there is a lot.

there is a pregnant girl in one of my classes.

i think that when i met her is when i began to realize how many there were.

some people think that the pregnant girls are all whores.

but i beg to differ.

they are just like any other girl that spreads her legs open for their boyfriend.

they just got unlucky.

that's how i see it.

so anyone who calls them whores, could probably be called a whore too.

i'm not saying every girl at pshs has had sex.

but i know that a lot have.

so to all those pregnant girls:

good luck with the kid.

i'll bring you a baby gift when i get paid.

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fight fight fight

i was up late last night talking to a friend online.

we shall call her ashley.

she told me that some people were planning on beating her up.

i told her she was being ridiculous and that she shouldn't believe everything she hears.

today some girl (well call her amanda) came up and told ashley to "watch her back."

i still don't think amanda will do anything.

but ashley seems actually threatened.

the whole she-bang seems stupid.

no one at pshs really fights anymore.

last year there were so many fights.

but this year seems different.

the first fight of the year (with ruts) wasn't even until like october.

and every other fight after that has been pretty lame.

ever since goggins came in charge everyone seems too nice.

in my opinion it's far too strange to have people not fight.

but ashley still thinks she's going to get hurt.

whatever.

as for jake.

he still isn't saying much to me.

but he did say that when he talked to me last he was completely drunk.

i think it was stupid for him to drink.

but i guess it's the reason for all the mean.

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~EDIT~

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